I grabbed his neck and slammed him against the wall
my punches landed on his face
It was in a fit of rage
I was eighteen that day

He got home drunk started hitting me for no good reason
I took it like I had done
since I was one
but I could not bear the pain of the sight
when my sister who never put up a fight
got a blow on her right
My rage was beginning to grow
and I didn’t know how it was going to go
he walked towards me again to beat me black and blue
like he’s done many times before

I grabbed his neck and slammed him against the wall
my punches landed on his face
It was in a fit of rage
I was eighteen that day

But that day was not the same
not like the other day when he hit me while I was sleeping
A blow on my stomach woke me up at three in the morning
It was like his routine
Every time he’d come home from a party
he would look for a reason to beat me
and the day he didn’t find a reason to beat me
ah! he didn’t need a reason to beat me
but that night was not the same
as my rage had a death wish on my name
The moment he laid his first punch
I said mother fucker you can’t touch me again

I grabbed his neck and slammed him against the wall
my punches landed on his face
It was in a fit of rage
I was eighteen that day

I grew up in abuse
he would beat me and she would mentally abuse
been cut with knives, beaten with sticks
the garden hose had new found use
till that day when I couldn’t take it any more
I put down my foot and I said no more

I grabbed his neck and slammed him against the wall
my punches landed on his face
It was in a fit of rage
I was eighteen that day

I was eighteen that day but it was not my birthday
but it was a special day
It was my independence day
the day I said “NO”
After this day I got beaten no more
I am weird and I am strange
I am who I am and I wouldn’t change
All this abuse has made me strong
It’s also made me miserable and done me wrong

The freedom was only an illusion..
There is no set solution
I thought that was the end of it all
Only the physical abuse ended but the emotional carries on